Saturday, July 14, 2012

I'm Back, Baby!

Alright everyone, I'm back to blogging and I have a Wordpress blog now! Until I get sufficient funding to get a really cool site with my own domain name at the end, I've decided to continue Placated by Post for now. I'm looking at starting at least one other blog too, dealing with...something. When I know (which should be very soon), I'll let you know! Until I come up with some more clever things to blog about here, check out my  latest ramblings at Citizen Above.

Thanks everyone! Also, I really need to start reading more of my friends' blogs. You agree too? Well then, that settles it. ;)

Monday, October 17, 2011

Let My Heart be Forever Fixed Upon You

Take my heart, oh God...take it and let it rest ever so deeply in you. For my love has taken it over, my love rests not and goes not away...and loving him more from far away, my heart, it hurts more with every passing day. Oh Love of my life, let me always be found in You. Show me of Your faithfulness, lead me to what's true.

Thursday, August 25, 2011

The Doctor & Rose Tyler - True Love Exemplified


Love is sweetest and defined most properly when it is given with no hope of return, with no expectation that you will receive anything other than the hurt and joy that springs from loving another person with all your heart, regardless of their flaws.

Regardless of their oblivion.

Regardless of whether they will not…CANNOT love you back.

Such was the case with Rose and the Doctor.

Sometimes love can be so obvious that one need not even say it but for the sake of assuring the other person.

Often though, the love is quiet, covered by manifold actions that should in fact display the love but instead rather smother it. Either because of ignorance or apathy or taking those things for granted.

Because sometimes when you’re as close to someone as the Doctor was with Rose, you don’t appreciate the relationship as you should.

Perhaps the story of Rose and the Doctor should make us more thankful for the special people in our lives.

Or make us realize that we should speak now and tell someone the truth about how we feel…

After all, Rose Tyler was brave. She choked back her faltering voice as she stood on the lonesome beach in the alternate universe and mustered up the courage to say what she needed to say. “I love you,” she told the Doctor, speaking through her tears.

The Doctor smiled weakly, bitterly. Because although he loved her with both of his hearts, one of them was splitting in two from the pain of knowing that he could never live the rest of his life out with her.

Such is the immortal plight…to fall in love with a human is the most cruel thing their hearts can do to them.

“Quite right too,” said he.

He paused, briefly thinking about whether he should say it before he made his decision.

“And I suppose, it it’s my last chance to say it,” he began, “Rose Tyler…”

But then his image faded from her sight forever, being swept back into the TARDIS because his time there was up.

He stood there in the TARDIS, heart waning and hope destroyed. Oh, he was a fool, a terrible fool. A terrible fool who had succumbed to the heartbreaking realism of love. All his dreams that he wished to come true were but naught, his happy ending could never happen because it would not be an ending nor a beginning, but somehow nothing but an eternity without the love of his long and experienced immortal existence.

He could not make her happy. He could only be happy that she would be able to be happy with his clone, the man with a human heart rather than his own alien pair of hearts.

Tears streaming down his cheeks, he raised his eyes toward the heavens as if begging for one last chance for everything to be made right again, to have mercy on this his wounded excuse for a man, raging against his immortal soul.

He was beaten. He walked away. Away from Rose his eternal love and the life she now lived with him and without him at the same time. He was unable to give her love and unable to receive it.

Still, he was thankful he knew Rose. He had not a single regret. He was better for having known her. For having loved her and experiencing her love for him while they were able to express it, back when they had their many adventures together.

Perhaps Shakespeare was right… It is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.

The Doctor never forgot Rose Tyler, as she never forgot him.

Perhaps we were all so amazed and saddened at the events that took place over the course of their relationship because it was not a normal love affair at all.

Oh no, it was much bigger. For the Doctor in all his immortal brilliance bestowed his love on a human girl although she was certainly not deserving of it at all, didn’t expect it at all. And the girl, loving the Doctor through her loyalty and faithfulness to him, proved again and again during their adventures in the TARDIS. He protected her, just as she saved him. Their love was otherworldly.

You see, the ending to their love story, although not ideal, was not a failure.

For true love is not that which always experiences happy endings where movie audiences are overjoyed and applaud at the end.

No, true love is sacrificing your own happiness for the benefit of the other. Rose and the Doctor both demonstrated this throughout their series of adventures as well as their reunion on the beach.

True love is loving the other so wholeheartedly that you know beyond a shadow of a doubt that you will do what’s best for them no matter what.

That you will want what’s best for them no matter what.

Even if that doesn’t include you.

Perhaps the Doctor loved Rose Tyler with his two hearts more than any other has loved a woman in the history of all the world.

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Thinking...

Sometimes I think I do this sort of thing too much. Contemplate, that is. I wonder and I wander, I think and I meditate and and every now and then I lose myself in the world of "what-if's."

What if my life were different? ...Majorly different. What would I be doing now?

Oohrite. I'd probably be asleep.

And not up after midnight, thinking...

Wondering...

Wishing...

What if I was a different person? Would you love me then?

What if I had a different family life? An easier, more blissful one.

Family problems stink. I wish they didn't exist. I wish sin didn't exist.

What if I could re-wind to last year and live as I did then? For I was really and truly happy last year, and the first few months of this year.

Sure, I'm still happy. It just doesn't feel the same sometimes. I don't feel overflowing with gladness or joy or thankfulness like I usually do.

I feel that way right now.

Maybe that's because I'm a crazy person who stays up til the wee hours of the morning writing blog posts about nothing, just whatever I'm thinking, because I'm not motivated enough to go upstairs and grab my journal instead.

Or maybe I'm a cruel, cruel person who enjoys subjecting her dear sweet friends to such nonsense nothingness.

Right, that must be it.

I want something to change.

I need some motivation. Not just the kind that keeps me going through the day, but the kind of motivation that allows me to just STOP thinking about everything I've done wrong and everything I could've should've would've done right, if I had only made the right choice. I always think about those things at night.

They enter my mind before I sleep.

And I eventually drift away, but not before I pray.

Pray and praise God that "tomorrow is another day."

It's not that I haven't forgiven myself.

I just have too much to think about, I suppose.

Hopefully none of you will see this horrid blog post.

But if you do, please pray for me.

Pray that God will show me what He wants me to do.

I know, really vague. Man, my style is rather off so late at night, dontcha think?

Random side note: I've been reading too many Beverly Lewis Amish novels. I want to visit Lancaster County. And Europe (although the latter is not at all related; I've wanted to travel to Europe ever since I was young).

Bye everyone. Hopefully my next blog post shall be more immediate and cohesive. :)





Thursday, May 19, 2011

A Most Needed Update

So I'm posting this because I pretty much...feel really lame about never updating since July 2010. By now my sorry little unkempt blog must be long forgotten. And those of you who clicked this link because you stumbled across it in your Google Reader queue can attest to this. ;) For the rest of you who haven't read my blog before, hi! I'm glad you made the time to read this post of pure drivel. My name on here is Beth, but that's just one of my many nicknames. Those of you who know me probably call me by Liz or Lizzie - two of my favoritest nicknames in the whole world. :) Well, I originally started this blog as an "everything" blog, but I got terribly lazy and posted mainly poetry and songs that I've written throughout the couple years I've had it. But I love to blog about all kinds of things (at least, I know I'd LOVE to), and I just need to give myself a 'little' kick to get to where I want to be in that area.

So, I'm thinking of trying to upkeep this blog in addition to starting another one that will be more generally targeted toward everyday things - tips and info and humorous posts, while this one I would leave for more serious-oriented musings, poetry and such. I haven't come to a decision yet, however - would you do me a favor and weigh in with your thoughts? :)

Thanks so much! You will be seeing more regular updates here until I come to a decision one way or another (and please pardon the atrocious grammar and sentence structure in this post, sometimes a busy journalist/writer's work tires out her poor wee little brain by 11:30PM).

Toodles!

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Little Songs & Smiles

This past week, I've been writing some fun little ditties for my friend. It's been fun to see what I come up with in 10 minutes.
A few of them are posted below. Enjoy, comment, and let me know...if you ever want me to write you something. ;)

Sunny Day

It's a day full of sunshine,
A day to be free.
A day to smile,
Wherever you may be.
You've got a wish,
I've got a dream.
Let's run down to Boardwalk
And splash in the stream.
You've got a picnic,
I've got a map.
Let's take a walk,
We'll make it a snap!
Night falls, we tiptoe
But we're too loud
We're havin' too much fun
To notice there isn't a crowd.
Singing songs, peals of laughter
Echo from the deck.
It's just a mirage,
But this chapter ain't over yet.


Simple Joy
There's no way that I
Can pinpoint the reason why,
When my spirits are down,
Just a smile from you lifts them high.
There's no way to begin to investigate
The simple Joy I get
When we talk and stay up late.
And I honestly don't know how -
This feeling is happening now.
For so long there was a time
Where I never thought you would be mine
And you, you should know, all thoughts aside,
That I want to be the one who won't give up...
I'm sitting here, waiting for the tide. :)


The Part Where Lizzie Comes Out And Sings A Silly Song
I wake up just to hear ya singin'
Roll outta bed just to think of you
Is that my phone that's dancin' while it's ringin',
We're gonna talk, 'cause it's way underdue.
You might be the one that I'm waitin' for,
And who knows what life will bring on.
All I need is a plane ticket to Florida,
Five seconds notice 'til I'm packed and gone.
You're just like the sunshine in the mornin',
With enough light to brighten my day.
You're just like the sugar in my coffee,
putting a bounce in my walk every step of the way.
And I don't know this thing you've got about you,
Spent so many nights wishin' I knew.
Maybe it's the way you laugh,
Or the way you drink half n' half.
Maybe it's the way you set the room on fire,
Maybe it's the way that you take me higher.
Maybe it's the way, maybe it's the way youuu...
Make me smile all darn day! :)


Oh My Dear
Oh my dear,
It seems you've got a lot to say.
Oh my dear,
please bring me a sunny day.
Oh my dear,
you're sweet, my only.
See you smile,
are you happy to have known me?
I am sure it's been way too long,
darlin', since I last wrote you a song.
So here's to you,
here's to me.
Here's to everything
we can't see.
Here's to us,
because we're friends.
Here's to a love that never ends. <3

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

A Song For Brenna


For one of my very best friends, Brenna Marie Bakke - Happy Birthday to you, my wonderful 5-year-younger twin, with all my love. <3

Here we are, having the best days of our lives
See our smiles that are lighting up the nights
Never knew such a wonderful girl in my life (until you)
Now and then, and again I think back
Remembering all the things I lacked
Before I found you

I found you, dearest
I found you, gorgeous
I found you, comrade
And a girl on fire for God
The day I met you
Who would've ever knew
That it was the start of something
Greater than we dreamed

I have been so blessed
You name me among your best
I couldn't ask for anything more

Here you are, having the best day of your life
I wish I could see your smile light up the night
I've never had a more precious friend in my life (than you)
Now is the present, and I don't wanna live in the past
I treasure every moment with you, and I'm gonna make this time last
Because I found you

I found you, darling
I found you, lovely
I found you, bestie
And a girl who rocked to Skillet
I'm so happy God brought me to
That day that I finally met you
Because it was the start of this
Awesomely epic 5-year-apart twinness
And what we are today

I am so blessed
You name me among your best
I couldn't ask for anything more (except adoption)

I found you
My beautiful Brenna
I'm so happy I met ya
God gives the best gifts!

Now let's sing this song again
The next time we meet
And we'll dance in the rain
And praise His glorious,
Marvelous, wonderful name (Jesus)! :)